Thursday, November 03, 2005

hmmm....

i emailed my seminar paper to my class. after doing so, i was immediately wracked with angst about word choices, oh i should have said this point instead, that was so cheesy, ugh ugh ugh. sometimes i wish that email had an "unsend" button, that could reach out over cyberspace and retract your communications.

oh, i ma ridiculous.

and for some reason, somehow, i feel "called" (not sure if that is even the case) to be a writer. i am a writer?

i don't know if i can stand the mental anguish of putting my words out for people to read. perhaps it is only outweighed by the mental anguish i would suffer if i did not write.

so i press on. not quite knowing where i am going.

hey, it worked for abraham.

1 comment:

Lara said...

You are totaly a writer, don't doubt yourself or the gifts God has given you! Maybe you should develop an alternate persona (like Bono has for when he's on stage) for when you are writing. A pen name per say. Then if people didn't like what you wrote (which would never happen anyway because you rock but this is just in an extremely odd circumstance) you could just say, oh that was "the moth" that wrote that anyway. Of course you could think of a cooler name but I'm just paying homage to "the fly."