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not sure what to write about the last few days. finishing off my set of work shifts was kind of a blur, because i was tired and sick feeling. it's good to have my brother around. we eat a lot of food - i've used my employee meal discount at my job three times this week. hard to turn down the good food when it's so inexpensive. we went big - appetizers, entrees, dessert. i'm going to be 400 pounds by the time i finish this job, whenever that may be.

friends across the interweb are buying themselves fun shoes. i feel the urge to consume also. time for some new kicks.

i find myself unmotivated to sit down and write (besides on this blog). it's a similar feeling to when i try to go running again after i haven't for a long time - burning lungs, sore muscles, general miserable feeling. only since it's writing i only get the general miserable feeling. well, my brain hurts, so that counts as a sore muscle. trying not to beat myself up about it. just gotta keep making time to write, just like you gotta keep running.