well, i got the phone call. and it wasn't the response i was hoping for. i'm kind of muddled feeling right now - disappointed, frustrated, but still hopeful. not ideal, but that's life, ya know?
thus far, it was the most humane and helpful rejection of the job search thus far. i still really respect this organization and would still like to work for them, and i will still keep volunteering. i'm quite happy volunteering - it's too bad the nature of volunteering is not being paid for it. and there is always the possibility that other jobs could come up.
perhaps tomorrow i will be more annoyed. and that will probably be the case. meh, i say.
while i remain open to whatever could come up, a large part of me still feels drawn to the tenderloin, to people that haven't really caught any breaks. i can't explain it, and some days i do feel a little crazy. and sometimes i wish i could be happy doing data entry. or that maybe majoring in business in college had sounded interesting to me. or that i was good at making spreadsheets? or hell, even wearing pantyhose. i don't even know. i mean, everything is getting shaken up now. in the post-capitalist era, i will be a shepherd. or... a beer brewer. i know friends that would teach me their craft.
those wyotech ads for becoming an electrician are looking pretty good. in spite of my dark humor, i also still have this feeling that things will turn out okay. and that also makes me think i am crazy.
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