in the waiting line

sigh. waiting for:

my car to arrive. (mr. honda dealer was full of shit back in november! when he said it would be here in january!)

people to call me back after i've left messages, sent resumes, written cover letters, sucked up.

the next part of my life to start.

this is not passive waiting. i feel like i'm doing what i can to make this happen. all these machinations to get to a result. phooey.

i'm going to go eat cookies.